I love my dress. It was from F21, a gift given to me by a close friend last christmas. The shoes was from CMG. And the watch, from Nine West.
Taken last April 20, 2013 in one of my mom’s friends’ wedding.
It’s 6:10 in the morning, and I still haven’t had sleep. I’m tryin’a be a hippie here, ‘cause I’m f*ckin in love with Chris from Skins UK. So, F*CK IT!
I just finished watching Skins UK Seasons 1 and 2. It’s f*ckin’ amazing! I love the fact that after everything that has happened to them, they’re still friends.
But the saddest part for me was when Chris died. I just love how amazing that guy was. Though he’s an addict, he’s still sweetest and most determined of all the guys in their generation.
Their generation has ended. For now, their generation was the best, funniest and craziest. So, F*CK IT!! <-(because I like Chris. only those who watched this will get me.)
So, I was basically deleting some of my old useless files. Pictures, movies, musics, hands-on files, almost everything. Then, I saw this. I read it again. I can still feel that feeling, that feeling I used to have 8 months ago. I know it’s foolishness, but I just can’t help it. I fell hard, and I don’t even know why. For 8 long months I was asking myself, “of all the guys out there, why him? why did I fell for a guy who doesn’t seem to care for me like the way I did for him? I just don’t get it!”
But then I thought of everything that has happened, maybe if things were still the same, I’d still hurt everyday. I did not regret telling him in a different way how I felt about us. NO! Actually, there never was an “us”, I guess, or maybe there was. I don’t know! All I know is that everything happens for a reason.
He also said that, “Wag mong pagsisihan yung mga nagawa mo, kasi at some point ginusto mo ding gawin yun.”
PS. He still doesn’t know anything about this letter.
I’ve always dreamt of joining a pageant ever since I was a little girl. Because I know and I believe that I have the “beauty and brains” But the problem is that I don’t have the confidence.
5 years ago, there was an Icon Hunt in our school. And every section has to have a representative. None of them in our section wanted to join, so I did. And that was my first time to join a such competition.
We’ve had our workshops every Sunday for a month or two. We did dancing, acting, singing and modelling. I even got close to the other 11 candidates. But in the end it’s still a competition. Sadly, I didn’t win. A Fourth year student won, and I’m still in First year high school that time. But I was lucky enough to be in 3rd place.
I don’t know if I’ll still join some pageants in the future, but we’ll see.
Belated Birthday/Christmas/New Year/Valentines gift from Raine. Thanks twin sissy!!
